Assalamualaikum.......
So, Ramadhan is going well, fasting getting easier, and Quran getting read more. SubhanAllah!
But Taraweeh.... well thats a different story. I prayed the first one, alhamdulillah, but after that i was put on creche duty (where I look after the kids that are too small to pray). Since then, I haven't done a taraweeh. I feel really bad, I really wanted to do the whole month this Ramadhan, but instead, I'm stuck with a bunch on kids.
I was complaining to my mum about the kids, and she just said a simple "Dont do it then. Come pray instead." I didnt have an answer to that, I mean I cant just leave and not turn uo for my duty... I'm needed as a volunteer, there arent that many willing to sacrifice their tarweeh prayers for kids.
But then again, I dont want to be that person!! It's Ramadhan, a month where when you do one good deed, the ajar mutliplie tenfold. I dont WANT to be looking after kids! I want to be there, praying and earning rewards, just like everyone else.
Wallahi it's not fair, and I don't know what to do. Will I get ajar for looking after the kids while the parents are praying? If I do, is it going to be the same amount? It's bugging me a lot, and I just had to write it down to get all my frustrations out and vent about it for a bit.
I hope you didnt mind. I know it's not good to be angry when you're fasting, but then I'm not fasting after I've broken my fast and it's time for taraweeh... :P
InshaAllah, all will go well, and I will get a lot of ajar for doing that which I dont like doing.
Walaikumsalam
